LORDY LORDY LOOK WHO'S............(don't you f*kkin' say it.........)

That's right kids, in less than four months, yours truly turns the big 4-0.

Where has the time gone?
It's seems like just yesterday my kids were in diapers, I was starting out my new job and buying my first house. Of course the reality is that all of these events were about 13 years ago.

But now, I'm going to beginning the fourth decade of my life and I'm no where near where I thought I'd be.

When I was turning 21, and when I'd give a shit about where I'd be in life twenty years down the road, not once did I figure on being divorced, working a dead-end job and NOT doing anything with my music.
But on the flip side, now that I'm "that old", I didn't think I'd still find cartoons funnier than hell, enjoy playing D&D with friends, and thinking "Goth chicks are HOT".

Maybe it's just me, but when someone would turn 40, it'd be said they were "on the downslope" and thus they would show signs of being a "responsible adult".
But for me, it's like the only way to tell how old I am is to cut me in half and count the rings.

I have to admit, sometimes I do feel guilty (for lack of a better word), for not having really grown up, at least in my interests.
I mean, just because I can waste a couple hours watching 'toons with my kids (ok:sometimes alone), or read a comic book, doesn't mean I'm not a responsible adult.
I mean, I've owned my own home for going on 13 years now,and never been under the threat of foreclosure.

I recently saw an ad on a dating site from a woman that was looking for a man who "had given up the video games, cartoons, and comic books" and was ready for a real relationship. (It's almost like she knew I was coming!).
But who says you can't enjoy the simpler things and not have a healthy relationship with someone? (I'm sure there's SOME one, but they don't count).

On the one hand, I suppose being "childlike" is an advantage because it gives one an 'edge' when connecting with one's children.
But the down side is no one seems to take you seriously.

Story of my life.........

About a month ago, I went to an area music event.
I gal I'd met several years ago at a friends' wedding, decided she was going to come up and meet up with me. (we live about 3 hours from one another).

Now, she's someone I'd kept contact with through MySpace, and I'd always found her interesting.
That night, (this would be the first time we'd been face to face since the wedding)we hung out and got to know each other quite well.
Naturally, I became interested in her.

A few weeks would go by after that night, and for whatever reason, she stated she wasn't interested in dating, but would love to hang out again. (we both love gaming, and she was happy to finally find someone she could talk about (our mutual interests) and not have that person glaze over).

Most recently, she bought a house, furthering the fact that there will be no chance in dating.

SO, I meet a girl that actually has the same interests as I, is VERY interesting to hang around with, but will NEVER be anything more than someone to talk with.

Another four months and I qualify for a "Born-again-40-year-old-virgin"

*sighs*