It's ok........I'm still here........

For those of you in my fan base, (both of you), I'm here to let you know that I'm still around.

You see, I'm just not a very good writer. (Haven't we visited this before?)
Over the last month or so, I've had several good topics I could have written about. However, after composing a couple of sentences, I wouldn't know where to go next.
I'd either just get writers' block, or my mind would be on the latest fiasco my ex-wife was creating.

Therein lies the other problem to my writing:my topics will invariably cover some kind of rant about my ex-wife. And why? Because it seems that no matter how hard I try to ignore it and move on, she constantly bombards me with stupidity, selfishness, or just downright meanness.

It's hard to have a life, when your ex seems to have it for you.

For example, I currently bring home $200 a week. This is after my child support and mortgage are taken care of.
While it's hard enough living on that kind of income, (i.e. having any kind of social life, maintaining ones homestead, or having any type of hobby), recently the ex has informed me that both boys will be getting braces.

Now, I'm not against the idea. However, it's come to my attention that my older boy (almost 12) doesn't really need them, according to the dentist. However, the orthodontist says that he would benefit from having them.
Well of COURSE he could benefit from them. YOU(ortho) are a good salesmen and have convinced my ex-wife to get me to spend more money than I have available.

Now, our younger son WILL benefit from them. Currently, he is a little 'Bucky-Beaver'. And when I confront the ex about getting them for one child, her response was, and I quote,"I'm not going to get (child) braces and not (other child). That's just rude!".

Now, some of you can say "just don't pay for them".
Right.
It was hard enough standing up to my ex when she wasn't my ex.
She is all about the control, and not bending, which is exactly what happened to our relationship.

ANYway, most recently, I gave up 4 hours of my weekend time with my kids so they could go to their cousins b-day party.
In understanding the situation, their cousins live a few hours away, and see them only occasionally.
BUT, I was asked about their attending only that morning, and was told it'd only be two hours. PLUS, I could keep the boys two hours longer on Sunday before returning them.
Ok. Fine. Whatever.

They were picked up around 5:30 p. and returned FOUR hours later. Not two. Four.
Twice as much as two hours. Get the point? Let's move on.

Sunday comes around, and she leaves a rather loud message on the machine announcing that she has obtained the elusive Nintendo Wii. (my younger son was sleeping downstairs and I'm surprised her wailing over the phone didn't wake him up).

So great. Now the boys have a reason NOT to want to spend a few extra hours with dear ole dad.
Of course, I can't say 'no' to their excitement and take them back at the regular time.

But come on! She had to have known this is the kind of response she'd get.
"Fuck him out of four hours, and get the boys hopped up on coming home early!".

I am not exagerrating when I say she is the MOTHER of self-sidedness.

So, why am I pissy all the time?
Why can I not get out a decent blog?
How am I supposed to compete with her household having four game consoles, trips to Disney World, cruises, train rides, ect. when I can't even get my kids name brand clothes, not to mention clothes at all?

But............I digress..................